...is the song thats currently stuck in my head and won't get out...its a song from HSM3: senior year...and yeah, i WATCHED it...dont judge me. the movie was pretty good. musically, this is by far the best out of the three hsm movies, but i feel like the plot could have use more fine tuning with transitions. overall..good movie. its a feel good movie...go watch it if you're feeling crappy, even if you dont like hsm.
speaking of crappy...thats pretty much how i've felt like recently. the pressure of getting work done and making sure i do well so i can graduate isn't really working for me right now. i feel like i still have senioritis...from highschool...-_-"
eversince my senior year, my work ethic and plumeted. i use to be one of those students that did my work as soon as the assignment was assigned and finish it within a couple days if it was a project or paper. i would study hours for exams and ace them without a sweat. now, i wait until the last minute to do my work, and study hours BEFORE my exams >.<"(speaking of which...i should be studying right now..i have a test in 2.5 hours)
so back to the pressure...so apparently my church at home (ocm) is planning a tour of israel sometime in may. initially, the time the scheduled the tour overlaps with my graduation ceremony. but my dad wants to attend my graduation, so they changed the tour date...talk about pressure T-Ton top of that right now, i have a 25 minute seminar to give in 2 weeks, and i haven't even really started putting anything together (i did some research..but definitely not enough)
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sighh...a little better...haha, now the song "scream" from hsm3 is playing...its a point of the movie where troy (zac) was frustrated with life and what not...how appropriate...
but yeah...another thing thats been on my mind is really my future. i can't picture where i would be at this time next year. the idea of becoming iv staff still lingers my mind...but i really want to do something with music. i talked to my parents about it briefly over the weekend when i went home, and i dont know whether i should be surprised or not? but they were ok with it. they just want me to follow wherever God leads me...but God hasn't been the easiest guy to figure out lately...so yeah, for those of you that read this, please keep praying for me. thanks!
sorry for quite the random post..okk...i really should study...pEaz!
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
there's no place like home...i wish i could stay here
an over due update...
so i've been home for the past 5 days..give or take...and although i've accomplished ABSOLUTELY nothing in terms of the the amount of work i had planned to do, its been one of the most relaxing 5 days ever. the past few days consisted of sleep (i avg. 12 hours of sleep), eat AWESOME home cooked meals, meet up with friends, bum, and doing a little bit of work. i know that i wrote how life was going pretty well in my last "post", but i guess in some ways i was lying. i WANTED to think that it was going well...when it really wasnt.
over these past few days, along with chillaxing came with lots of time to think. and if you've read my blog for a while now, you know what happens to my mind when i think too much. so this past weekend, my parents, along with friends and uncles and aunties in the church have been asking how school was, and when i was going to graduate. and i answered "school is good, and im graduating next spring. so im at bing for this year...yeah.." however, if i was speaking to them truthfully...my answer should of been, "school is ok, im behind in my classes, but im really really hoping i can get my act together and graduate next spring...yeh, i might be at bing longer..."(crosses fingers) T-T wahhhhhhhhhhhhh....
ok, so maybe it really isnt THAT bad, but its close to it. this past 2 weeks have been quite hectic with exams and papaers...and lets just say i've dug my self my usual hole -_-". its not as deep as it use to be, but i really wanted to have a better start than i got. and if i cant dig my self out this time, then im in REALLY REALLY big trouble. sighh...school sucks. i hate it ((Q))-_-"
alright...sorry for the ramble...im definitely making it sound much more dramatic than it really is, but at the same time im trying to implant that in my mind so i would really get cracking with my work...okk...speaking of work, i really gota go study...finish packing, then pick up these two awesome sisters from the airport who were having the time of their lives and drive back up to bing.
pEaz
so i've been home for the past 5 days..give or take...and although i've accomplished ABSOLUTELY nothing in terms of the the amount of work i had planned to do, its been one of the most relaxing 5 days ever. the past few days consisted of sleep (i avg. 12 hours of sleep), eat AWESOME home cooked meals, meet up with friends, bum, and doing a little bit of work. i know that i wrote how life was going pretty well in my last "post", but i guess in some ways i was lying. i WANTED to think that it was going well...when it really wasnt.
over these past few days, along with chillaxing came with lots of time to think. and if you've read my blog for a while now, you know what happens to my mind when i think too much. so this past weekend, my parents, along with friends and uncles and aunties in the church have been asking how school was, and when i was going to graduate. and i answered "school is good, and im graduating next spring. so im at bing for this year...yeah.." however, if i was speaking to them truthfully...my answer should of been, "school is ok, im behind in my classes, but im really really hoping i can get my act together and graduate next spring...yeh, i might be at bing longer..."(crosses fingers) T-T wahhhhhhhhhhhhh....
ok, so maybe it really isnt THAT bad, but its close to it. this past 2 weeks have been quite hectic with exams and papaers...and lets just say i've dug my self my usual hole -_-". its not as deep as it use to be, but i really wanted to have a better start than i got. and if i cant dig my self out this time, then im in REALLY REALLY big trouble. sighh...school sucks. i hate it ((Q))-_-"
alright...sorry for the ramble...im definitely making it sound much more dramatic than it really is, but at the same time im trying to implant that in my mind so i would really get cracking with my work...okk...speaking of work, i really gota go study...finish packing, then pick up these two awesome sisters from the airport who were having the time of their lives and drive back up to bing.
pEaz
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