a quick update...
its official..im a college graduate. grades are in and i passed...with flying colors!
also, i will be interning at ocm for the next year. excited? heck yeah!
ok..thats all...gota wake up in 3 hours to drive 6 hours to basilaylay =]
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Friday, May 22, 2009
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
HOLY CRAP...i'm a college graduate O.o?
after 5 long years (not really now that i think about it) here i am, a college graduate, double major in music and chemistry, doing absolutely nothing. story of my life..haha..jk!
but yeah, its just a matter of time before im extremely busy again, so having this short time of rest is nice. being productive during this rest is a totally different matter though..haha.
now that i've had a lil bit of time (not really cuz i've been unpacking and moving crap for the past 2 days...but my room is freaking awesome right now) i started to think about/reflect on my past 4 years in bing and the 1 year i had in wisconsin...so here it goes: (warning...its long)
wisconsin/acf -
so my fresh year started off terrible. i came "home" to an empty house that use to be occupied by my whole family. i moved all my stuff into the master bedroom and i literally stayed in that room whenver i was home (except when i had to cook). it was extremely depressing...even though i had a full size house with 4 bedrooms, 2.5 baths, 2 door garage with 2 cars all to myself. but church wasn't a pleasant place to go, and i was running on fumes spritually. that was when i stumbled upon acf. at acf, i was given new light and served with awesome people that helped me to start growing with Christ again. so for that, i am very grateful. but, just when things were looking promising, i had to make decision on staying in wisconsin or move to new york. after praying and sorting things out, i decided to move to new york. it was bitter sweet. i knew that i had an awesome community in wisconsin. and in all honestly, i really didn't want to leave and it woulda been exteremely different had i stayed. but because of the relationship i had at that time, as well as the fact that i hated living alone, i followed my heart and emotions and took a gamble on leaving my "home" and starting a new one in new york.
new york/binghamton/intervarsity -
upon leaving wisconsin, i knew i had a long road ahead of me. coming to new york, i knew absolutely no one except my family and gf at the time. but even that was only in new york city. when i headed up to bing to begin school, it sucked big time. i did not know 1 single soul there and the whole lonely feeling came and overwhelemed me. i thought about what i could be doing in wisconsin and all the fun that i was missing. for a second, i regretted moving. BUT, i am a firm believer that things happen for a reason, even though at times i might not see/know the reason(s), i trust that God is using and working me to be the man He wants me to become. my first semester in bing was filled with loneliness, and a lot of trips back to the city. however, my 2nd semester there i started to be more active in IV and found places where i could serve. I finally found a community and things looked promising again. things went on like that for the next year and things were great, or so i thought.
winter 2006, i attended an IV conference called urbana. at urbana, we learned about missions, how God calls all His people to be a part of it. the theme of the conference was "Live a life worthy of the calling". at that conference (middle of my junior year), i felt like God spoke to me and was asking me to serve Him with the gifts He had given me. so i said "ok God, no more med school, i will follow you and live out my calling." i "changed" ( "change" cuz i ended up with a double major, but im really only doing music) my major from chemistry to music that spring semester and started a new chapter again. BUT, something hit me during this time, i was trying to balance serving God and my gf at the time, and i couldn't do it. I was stuck. After hours of talking with friends, talking with the parents, and talking to God, it was clear that i had to give something up. and obviously the answer would be to follow God, and thats what i did initially. but about a month in, i gave into my emotions and went the other way. that went on for a couple of months and one night during a talk with some of my brothers, i realized what i had done. it was like God slapping me across the face. i knew what i had to do. that summer was long, agonizing, painful, and draining emotionally, spiritually, physically, and mentally. i was running on fumes again. i was ready to quit. i wanted to run back "home" to wisconsin...BUT, God wasn't done with me. He took me on His shoulders and challenged me even at my weakest state.
fast forward 2 years...after that summer, i have never looked backed. i've set my eyes on God and God alone. and you know, its been nothing but AWESOMENESS. not saying that there wasn't any bumps on the road or times where i did looked away from God, cuz theres was plenty. but God's been awesome and He's been providing in every aspect of my life. i was able to get through my last year of school and have 2 of my better semester academically speaking in all my 5 years in college. in addition, He has used me in serving and helping grow IV @ BU and the fellowship is on its way in being a MAJOR force on campus (WAD-DUP! *blog five*). He has allowed me to reconnect with my family and given me the chance to live with them again. last but not least, He brought along a very special friend for me to walk with side by side.
so what now?
for those of you that are wondering, i sorta kinda have future plans, at least for the next year. its not totally finalized yet, but as of right now, it looks like i will be interning at OCM for a year. im gona go talk to Pastor Grace on thursday to figure things out. so i'll do another update then once i find out.
so yeah, thats college in a nut shell. i left out a LOT of details, if you wana know more, hit me up and we'll meet up in the city or something. oh one last thing, so for those that knew me in high school probably would say that i am a total introvert...but after going through college, i've realized that i am no doubt an extrovert. weird huh? the quiet/cant speak clearly guy...an extrovert...haha
but yeah, its just a matter of time before im extremely busy again, so having this short time of rest is nice. being productive during this rest is a totally different matter though..haha.
now that i've had a lil bit of time (not really cuz i've been unpacking and moving crap for the past 2 days...but my room is freaking awesome right now) i started to think about/reflect on my past 4 years in bing and the 1 year i had in wisconsin...so here it goes: (warning...its long)
wisconsin/acf -
so my fresh year started off terrible. i came "home" to an empty house that use to be occupied by my whole family. i moved all my stuff into the master bedroom and i literally stayed in that room whenver i was home (except when i had to cook). it was extremely depressing...even though i had a full size house with 4 bedrooms, 2.5 baths, 2 door garage with 2 cars all to myself. but church wasn't a pleasant place to go, and i was running on fumes spritually. that was when i stumbled upon acf. at acf, i was given new light and served with awesome people that helped me to start growing with Christ again. so for that, i am very grateful. but, just when things were looking promising, i had to make decision on staying in wisconsin or move to new york. after praying and sorting things out, i decided to move to new york. it was bitter sweet. i knew that i had an awesome community in wisconsin. and in all honestly, i really didn't want to leave and it woulda been exteremely different had i stayed. but because of the relationship i had at that time, as well as the fact that i hated living alone, i followed my heart and emotions and took a gamble on leaving my "home" and starting a new one in new york.
new york/binghamton/intervarsity -
upon leaving wisconsin, i knew i had a long road ahead of me. coming to new york, i knew absolutely no one except my family and gf at the time. but even that was only in new york city. when i headed up to bing to begin school, it sucked big time. i did not know 1 single soul there and the whole lonely feeling came and overwhelemed me. i thought about what i could be doing in wisconsin and all the fun that i was missing. for a second, i regretted moving. BUT, i am a firm believer that things happen for a reason, even though at times i might not see/know the reason(s), i trust that God is using and working me to be the man He wants me to become. my first semester in bing was filled with loneliness, and a lot of trips back to the city. however, my 2nd semester there i started to be more active in IV and found places where i could serve. I finally found a community and things looked promising again. things went on like that for the next year and things were great, or so i thought.
winter 2006, i attended an IV conference called urbana. at urbana, we learned about missions, how God calls all His people to be a part of it. the theme of the conference was "Live a life worthy of the calling". at that conference (middle of my junior year), i felt like God spoke to me and was asking me to serve Him with the gifts He had given me. so i said "ok God, no more med school, i will follow you and live out my calling." i "changed" ( "change" cuz i ended up with a double major, but im really only doing music) my major from chemistry to music that spring semester and started a new chapter again. BUT, something hit me during this time, i was trying to balance serving God and my gf at the time, and i couldn't do it. I was stuck. After hours of talking with friends, talking with the parents, and talking to God, it was clear that i had to give something up. and obviously the answer would be to follow God, and thats what i did initially. but about a month in, i gave into my emotions and went the other way. that went on for a couple of months and one night during a talk with some of my brothers, i realized what i had done. it was like God slapping me across the face. i knew what i had to do. that summer was long, agonizing, painful, and draining emotionally, spiritually, physically, and mentally. i was running on fumes again. i was ready to quit. i wanted to run back "home" to wisconsin...BUT, God wasn't done with me. He took me on His shoulders and challenged me even at my weakest state.
fast forward 2 years...after that summer, i have never looked backed. i've set my eyes on God and God alone. and you know, its been nothing but AWESOMENESS. not saying that there wasn't any bumps on the road or times where i did looked away from God, cuz theres was plenty. but God's been awesome and He's been providing in every aspect of my life. i was able to get through my last year of school and have 2 of my better semester academically speaking in all my 5 years in college. in addition, He has used me in serving and helping grow IV @ BU and the fellowship is on its way in being a MAJOR force on campus (WAD-DUP! *blog five*). He has allowed me to reconnect with my family and given me the chance to live with them again. last but not least, He brought along a very special friend for me to walk with side by side.
so what now?
for those of you that are wondering, i sorta kinda have future plans, at least for the next year. its not totally finalized yet, but as of right now, it looks like i will be interning at OCM for a year. im gona go talk to Pastor Grace on thursday to figure things out. so i'll do another update then once i find out.
so yeah, thats college in a nut shell. i left out a LOT of details, if you wana know more, hit me up and we'll meet up in the city or something. oh one last thing, so for those that knew me in high school probably would say that i am a total introvert...but after going through college, i've realized that i am no doubt an extrovert. weird huh? the quiet/cant speak clearly guy...an extrovert...haha
Philippians 4:6-7 (New International Version)
6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
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