binghamton

i cant believe im back here for school....-_-

thats all she wrote...

well, its done...sdc is over...summer is over.

good bye summer 08
hello fall 08

man, this summer went by really quick

summer is ending...and for some reason im ok with it

so about my last post, i was a bit frustrated because of a few things.

1. work wasn't really busy, but it was...not sure why, but the last couple of weeks have been hectic for no odd reasons. however, this past week its been pretty good. things went by smoothly, closing ceremony was good, staff dinner and superstars was fun.

2. our team (basketball) couldn't get a win. then we finally won 2 games, and had a shot at making the playoffs. but we lost our last game and just missed the cut for a wild card spot. it was a good season though, and our record definitely didn't reflect the skills of our team. but what can we do? we lost the games we needed to win. so we were sent packing home.

3. being home is just...blehh...not that i dont like being home, but being home feels really lonely. im not exactly sure how to explain it. dont get me wrong though, i LOVE being home...but at the same time i dont wana be. im sure you guys get what i mean...if not, ask me about it and i'll try to explain it better to you

so yeah, with all that in mind for the past few weeks, i've just been kinda in a "i dont wana think about it" mode. just trying to let the days go by and deal with situations as they come up. but over the last couple of days, i started to think again...and i realized that my summer vacation is ending (hopefully the last one..hahaha) and normally, i dread it cuz i feel like summer went by so quickly and i just wana have a couple more weeks to rest and play. but this summer, i feel like it went by just perfectly. i've had my time of rest and play, and im ready to go back to school to get my self and degree and graduate, and play more!!!...jkjk...ahhahaha...but yeah. i guess for me, (other than switching majors and figuring out what i want as a career) i've been scared. like...REALLY REALLY scared...of life after college. i havent really given it much thought in terms of where im headed and i guess i've kinda been using the excuse of "im trying to figure out where God is leading me"...but truthfully, i've just been scared. i really dont know what im gona do. sometimes i feel like God is leading me this way, but sometimes i feel like He's not. or maybe I'm thinking that He's not cuz i dont wana head in that direction?? i really dont know. (i havent been thinking about life the past few weeks..but you see my dilemma when i think?)

anyways...i guess for now, i know that God just wants me back in bing and finish up school. thats the first and foremost thing i need to do. and as much as i would love to stay "in college"...my financial status is getting extremely tight. so i really gota get cracking on those books. sighh...now that im thinking about it...maybe im not looking forward to school as much i as i thought when i started this post..hahahaha...i gota stop thinking -_-"

okk..sorry for the random thoughts..but i guess i just wanted to give an update of some sort.

aite..im outs..

p.s. LETS GO JETS!!!